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"I gave without wanting something in return... so could you cry just a little for me?" (Faith Hill)

Missing lots of people and feeling like I'm doing nothing with my life (despite how I'm in college full-time, doing Work Study to earn my financial aid instead of getting it for free, and focusing on my long-term goals).

Mostly I've been crying over my late baby sister and our last foster baby who I grew so attached to that I forgot she wasn't ours.

It also feels like I've lost my zest for life. Nothing excites me, I don't look forward to anything.

I used to never want to put anything this personal on my DA page again, but hey... this is MY place to express myself. I'm sad. So THERE. ;P
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gendruwox Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2009  Hobbyist Artist
wow Nice people here ( your Friend )
you'r luky girl ... cos you have a nice friend like them ... :D
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yes, I certainly am. =)
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gendruwox Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2009  Hobbyist Artist
so nice ...:D
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gendruwox Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2009  Hobbyist Artist
This is beautiful ... realy beautiful ... my friend ...
I like that ... :D
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SpellKeeper Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2008
Aww, Beka, I haven't seen you in forever. It's amazing to see how popular your work has become on dA. I wish I could say the same, lol.

I've hit a drop-to-my-knees-and-cry point in my life just recently. Not sure what's coming next; it's not a good feeling.

You should get in touch and we should maybe hang out. I can come visit! Call me? 360-719-8730!
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2008  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Several of my friends recently have been going through hard times too. :( Maybe it's some sort of bug going around... j/k.

I texted you just now, I hope that's alright. ^_^

Hehehe I dunno if I'm popular here, at least not compared to a lot of artists here that I really admire.

I'll be home from my nannying job this weekend. I'd love to see you! :heart:
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solidAbdul Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2008
love the perspective! way to go!
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tamira-shine Featured By Owner May 29, 2008
oh my!! you catched the feeling on here!!! <3
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Namekgirl Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2008
Really emotional and welldrawn, love it :+fav:
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GraveUnicorn Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2008
very emotional
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UntitledSpy Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2008
I did a drawing like that a long time ago. It was moment where I just wanted to drop on my knees and scream. So that's what I drew.

I know what it feels like when life feels like it's crashing down. We just have to take up the sword, force ourselves to our feet and fight for our future.
Pull through kiddo. We'll always be here for ya.
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2008  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:heart:
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s-blue-faerie Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2007  Student General Artist
awesome pose and emotion :)
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alfiov Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2007
very good perspective! :-)
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Kissloraine Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wonderful pics..
:thumbsup::slow:
I'm lovin' it..heehee...GBU
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anticia Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2007
Hey... I think I knoew how you feel... I often feel the same way... I always try to escape from it but it always reach me...

Beautiful pict... You draw really well! All of your works are dinamic and powerful!
Maybe you should make more coloured pict, too! ^^
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aawe than you so much! Hehe, I have tried coloring before and I think it's the hardest thing in the whole universe. ^^ ;
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anticia Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2007
Yeah, I know it! I'm practicing it over and over again to prove just a little... But it worths! ^^
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angryfisheatenbycat Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2007
Very powerful, very well drawn, very emotional. I hope you're feeling better now, though people you love should never be forgotten. :hug:
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philho Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2007  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Powerful... Not only it is excellent in anatomy/foreshortening, but you expressed perfectly the feeling.
I made not so long ago a Deviation ThumbShare thread on body language, it would have been a perfect fit!
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RebelArt-18 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2007
I feel completely hopeless right now. I worked soo hard for a musical auddition. I've been waiting an entire year, praticing and preforming and working, just to get a good part. Well let me tell ya, life sucks! I got stepped on and overlooked and kicked. I feel like i just want to sleep forever. I'm not suicidal or anything! Never! But i don't like feeling hoplessness when hope was all i had. I fear that i am going to become a worthless human. But i have no wanting to do anything, and won't for a while.

Your picture is beautiful and totally gets the emotion right!
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can't quite relate to that since I've never worked as hard as you for anything before and I'm far too much of a coward to put myself out there with the risks of being kicked and overlooked so I think you're amazing for even shooting for a dream. But it's good to let yourself be sad, I've learned. Mope, cry, scream, be angry, use any outlet you know. You need it after that. You deserve it too.

I admire your commitment and charisma... that's bound to benefit you some day. Thank you for the compliment. :hug:
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RebelArt-18 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2007
THANKS!!! I have been really depressed so i'm gonna go to my favorite italian resturaunt for supper!! i'vv gotten over being sad and I am now just pissed!!! Oh well i have daily vent sessions with my best gal pal and i should be fine by august!!
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's good to let yourself be angry too so it's good that you're getting therapy with your friend. ;) August? That's a long time though... I hope you feel better way before then!
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Neverdiex Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2007  Professional General Artist
I keep looking at this picture, and I love the folds in the clothes, the fingers clutching the head, and the way the strands of hair falls down...

Awesome! :dance:
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awe, you're too kind. Thanks for all the sweet compliments! :hug:
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Neverdiex Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2007  Professional General Artist
I speak the truth :) :hug:
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Neverdiex Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2007  Professional General Artist
:hug: The angst in this picture is beautiful!

Geez, I feel you on the college full time and working full time...
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shebann Featured By Owner May 31, 2007
awww how emotional :sniff:
i know how it is!
but this is some beautiful work :nod:
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner May 31, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeee! Thank you, you're too kind. =)
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Huntsman97 Featured By Owner May 21, 2007
Beautiful composition, excellent detail and fabric work! would luv to see finished ;)
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lazeedog Featured By Owner May 12, 2007
awesome angle on this piece
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Cha0sM0nkey Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2007
This is incredible.
very well done.
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sukistarz Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2007
i'd have to say this is your best drawing :D
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GellidusDraconis Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2007
I dont completely understand but sorry if you're feeling sad.
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ClawOfTheFallen Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
Just how I feel about my Deviant account...
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Don't say thaaaat! D= Y^Y I LOVE your work!
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spoosh Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2007
I am Truly sorry to hear that you lost a loved one.
You have my deepest symphony and I wish you and your loved ones well.
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AngelusALetum Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2007
Nice job on the picture... you've gotten much better since the last time i looked at your page. you excell in the areas i drag ass in. Hair and hands, my god the hands.
If you don't mind i would like to know some of the little tricks you use... Also i'm sorry to hear about all of the problems you've been facing... i've been there when my mother died and it can be hard to push through, but you'll make it and when you do... flex them guns, >.> means you're strong

and clothes too o.o man i gotta practice
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genaminna Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2007  Professional Traditional Artist
I really like this. I could totally feel the emotion <333 Yes! :w00t: expressing yourself is good, good, good! :nod: You never replied to my other comment :( But I still love you anyway :heart: ^_^; :hug:
but... don't be sad for too long... :( :hug:
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm horrible with keeping up with DA, I'm sorry! Y^Y And I might keep comments in my inbox to read again and again... Sowie for the neglect. I don't mean to! :petting:
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genaminna Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2007  Professional Traditional Artist
oh, it's okai (if you take a long time)! I'm glad ^_^;; I thought you thought I was annoying or something with my uber-long comment...(that's just my own negative thinking, sorry :petting: :hug: ) It's okai. take your time ^^;
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Naaaaah.... gimmie the longest comments you want. :love: You're too sweet for me to be annoyed with you. I'm just lazy.

:cuddle:
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genaminna Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2007  Professional Traditional Artist
hehehe, I know how that feels~ :giggle:
thank you so much...:hug:
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Hinata-Aisha Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2007
:hug: :hug: :hug: I hope you get better T T and don't get tooooo sad!!! *huggle*

we love you!! :hug:
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ConceptCat Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2007  Professional Digital Artist
Very awesome. That's actually a pose I did with Piccolo, naked with wings, reminds me of that picture. I like it. =)
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Is "broken" the one you're talking about? That was one of the first works of yours I had ever seen, it made me lurve you. =) :heart:
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ConceptCat Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2007  Professional Digital Artist
No actually it's one I never posted up Xx. Don't know why..heh. WOOPS! Thank you though. =) :heart:
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tjgrafix Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2007
This is the best piece I've seen from you
I cant even give any critique other than Amazingly done

I compleatly understand your position I am at school and working to pay for it and I am going in the direction I want

Yet I am still empty
lost on a path of hope
walking blind in the right direction
wishing the ansewer will come
to the question I don't have

Mabey I may not compleatly understand we are all different but this is how I feel.
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BekaDavis Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I never thanked you for this nice comment. Thanks for the sweet words. :heart: ^_^
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